Change-It's a Comin'

Do you ever just wake up and realize that everything has changed? This happens pretty often in my life. But what's worse is when I start noticing the changes as they happen. I'm not sure which is worse---to suddenly realize my life, job, friends, family, etc. is different or to see it start changing and know there is nothing I can do about it?

Of course, change is not always bad. Many times change results in excitement and a better situation. But most times it's bitter sweet. There's an excitement about what is in the future, but there is sadness that life as I know it is about to change. A lot of change is coming my way--change that I never expected and didn't really want. But as the time draws near and I slowly grasp that it's inevitable, I'm starting to get excited. Yes, I'm still sad, but at least I'm prepared. I'm a very sentimental person, so I'm not surprised that I would have these thoughts. However, I'm ALWAYS surprised that it never gets easier. But that can be a good thing. And after all, easy doesn't equal happy, so it's all good. :)

I'm still not sure which is better-being surprised or being part of the process. So for now I'll just assume that both are a part of life and both can be teaching moments. So good or bad, exciting or sad, ready or not, here it comes. And I'm alright with that.